When my daughter brought this picture home, I was honoured and moved. It meant a lot to me,even though she probably didn't think twice about it.

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I have become the Queen of Embedding. I haven't had much to say, so I've been trying to entertain you with the music I've been listening to as of late.

I'm working on a paper in my sociology class and the majority of my writing and free time has been spent toward that.

The weather has been fantastic these past couple of days. It has been cool which is an improvement from fucking cold as hell. It amazes me how much the weather affects my mood. Sometimes I wonder if I wouldn't get so blue if I lived in a warmer climate, one without the harsh winters. I do not see any beauty in winter.

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Good for a giggle. Turn your speakers on!

Restless

I am restless. I'm daydreaming about taking a drive this weekend to a nearby town for a little bit of ME TIME. It may sound crazy, but the idea of being in a hotel room for an evening all by myself sounds heavenly to me.

Me time.

My Purple Butt

I wiped out this weekend and now have a wounded left butt cheek which is a pretty shade of purple. It hurts to sit in my chair.

** Edited to add the freak show that is now on my ass. And yes, it hurts.**

Health

Every so often, I receive emails from people/friends who read this blog offering me words of encouragement or simply to let me know that I am not the only one who feels as I do.

I worry sometimes that I make myself sound a little worse/insane/unhappier than I actually am. I use this blog as a place to dump the crappy stuff and seldom do I share the good stuff.

Just know that the crappy and negative stuff that I purge here is only a part of my life. My struggles do not consume me by any means.

Lately I have not been feeling healthy. I have problems with a sore neck way too often and this leads to headaches and backaches.

I've decided that it is time to try and do something about it and get healthy. I used to enjoy running and I plan to start taking this up again. I'm excited to take my new MP3 playing for a run.

Now that the holidays are over, I'd also like to loose that last bit of weight I've been carrying. Loosing weight has always been easy for me when I actually set my mind to it. However, I do suspect that one day, since I'm getting older and can actually see the big 40 in my future, the weight will not come off quite as easily. All the more reason to do something about it now.

I'm not going on a diet per se but just plan to eat well and clean up my body by eating natural food rather than the processed crap that I've been gorging on during the holidays. I'm hoping I can loose 15 pounds or so simply by eating well and exercising.

Wish me luck!

Don't Ask Me

There was a time that I used to love to provide advice. I always knew what was best and I conducted myself in what I thought was the "right" way. I thought I was a moral compass. Ugh, how arrogant this thinking is to me now.

Now, I don't have much advice to give, let alone the desire to give it. This is both good and bad.

It is good because this means that I am not nearly as judgemental as I was once. We all fuck up and make mistakes and this is okay. If you can make a mistake yet take something away from it, all is not lost and some insight has been gained.

I don't offer advice or cast judgements because I don't feel that I am in a position to do so. In fact, I've yet to meet anyone who is in the position to cast their judgment on someone else. We are all living in glass houses and living our own realities. We do not walk in each others shoes so how can we possibly understand decisions that are made by another.

The downside of my not wanting to provide advice is that I also feel like I am a fuck up and not worthy of advising anyone else. It just feels wrong to tell someone to do things the socially acceptable way when I sometimes do not follow "acceptable" ways myself.

If someone you know is doing something wrong in your eyes, it is quite likely that this someone already knows it is wrong. They don't need to hear it from you. Let's face it, barring mental or social limitations, we all know what is right and wrong. We choose between the two constantly.

I no longer concern myself with what others do since my own inventory is the only one that truly affects me.

Your turn to fuck up shall come.