Friday, March 11, 2011

Not Sure What Title to Use - A Little of this and a Little of That?

The best definition of integrity that I have heard is that it's "what you do when no one else is looking."  I value integrity in others because I have been burned, like most people.  I want to have integrity and think I do in a lot of aspects in my life with the one exception being my sex life.  I'm still working on figuring that out.

Last night, I went to the Vagina Monologues with some friends.  It was all right I suppose, but I just don't think that my vagina is all that complicated.  She's a straight forward girl with simple wants and needs.   It seemed a little odd to me to be listening to an adult chronicle the discovery her genitals for the first time with a mirror.  I can't relate.  Although I don't recall the details, I believe that it's likely I conducted my discoveries with the mirror when I was nine or ten.  At this point in my life, I can find my clitoris wearing a blindfold.  Heck, the mirror can be there for fun but it's not required.

I'm aging and I can see it happening.  The skin around my eyes is changing.  My body is changing.  It's not making me ugly necessarily.  I'm only 38 soon to be 39 years old.  I just don't look as young anymore.  It disturbs me a little, but I kind of like it too.  I feel like it makes me less superficial or vain.  You'll have to look a little deeper than before to appreciate me.   I'll have to look a little deeper than before to appreciate me.

Signing out for now.